Well, I prayed - half heartedly - every day and read my scriptures, but only the words, no learning or pondering. For some reason, this past week was particularly hard for me. I did get my personal progress assignment signed off today though. My goals for this week:
This week was difficult. I did not sleep well all week, and I could feel it wearing on me. I don't know why it affected my spiritual goals, but it did. I missed one day of listening to conference talks. I, also, missed one day of prayers. I did read from the Book of Mormon during all of my afternoon breaks. I am glad that I did not forget that part. I was spiritually fed every day in some way.
The best part of my week involved Sean. After listening to President Uchtdorf's talk from Women's Conference, "Three Sisters," Sean talked about how the story of the three sisters was like the deathly hallows from Harry Potter. I didn't even realize that he was listening. Even though I did not totally understand the anology, he did. It made me happy that not only was he listening, he though about it enough to come up with a way to liken it to something he knew and loved.
This week, I am once again going to work on the same goal. I will keep working on these goals until they become second nature to me. I know I need this.
I am having a hard time getting my prayers in for some reason. I think I am doing it at the wrong time of day. Since it has been too cold for me to walk outside and pray, I have been doing it in the hall on my break at work. I get interrupted when I do this because it is a common area for the building. Also, when I have to do things like set up doctor appointments, I have to do it on my break. I know I can pray another time of day, but when my goal is to pray on my break, for some reason I think I have missed my chance if it doesn't happen.
I was able to read the Book of Mormon and listened to a talk every work day. It really does make my days go better when I start off with listening to a conference talk as the kids and I get ready for the day. I finished April 2017 conference and started on October 2017 this week. I am loving the talks from Women's Conference. My favorite this week was by Neill F. Marriott. She talked about growing our relationship with our Heavenly Father. I highly recommend reading or listing to it.
This week I will continue to read the Book of Mormon and listen to a talk every morning Monday through Friday. I will also pray everyday after I get dressed in the morning. I know I need this.
Well this week I was a little off. I forgot my scripture study and prayers a few times but I did read a general conference talk. It was by Elder Zwick titled, "Lord, Wilt Thou Cause That My Eyes May Be Opened?" It was really good because it went along with the lesson I taught in Relief Society about fellowshipping with less active people. I read most of my institute lesson which was on the Word of Wisdom. One thing that stood out to me about this lesson was about going to bed early and getting up early. I am such a night owl. I don't want to go to bed and I always regret it in the morning but I'm also dragging all day and can't seem to focus. I may have to incorporate some of that into my health goals next week. Anyway, I think I will go back and use my Book of Mormon institute manual as my study guide since I don't like the one I bought. I do like that one. So here are my goals for the week:
I will read my scriptures and pray every day
I will read one talk from General Conference
Use the Book of Mormon Institute manual in my scripture study
Have my next Personal Progress step signed off.
Continue using Preach My Gospel and do something from that
I did pretty good this week considering I went out of town. I had a really really rough travel time and I think because of that, it kept me on track for prayer and scriptures. I'm working on the next step in Preach My Gospel and I'm ready to have my next Personal Progress item signed off. I'm excited. I have discovered, however, that I'm not crazy about the study guide I bought. So far, I don't feel like it's doing much for me. I will keep at it for awhile though. This week is more of the same except I want to add in my reading for institute. I really love my class so I'm not sure why I don't get around to the reading. I also will read one talk from General Conference.
This seems to be the theme of most of my posts. I seem to do fairly well during the week, but when Saturday hits, it is like the goals don't exist anymore. Honestly, it frustrates me a bit when the weekend is over because I know I can do better. Monday through Friday, I did good. I even was running behind on Thursday and still managed to listen to a talk.
I have to say, my life has been truly blessed as I have completed these challenges. My outlook on life has gotten better as well. I may not be 100%, but I am doing more than I was before. I can feel myself growing spritually. Before I started really trying to listen to talks, read my scripture, and (my most recent addition) purposefully praying, I felt stagnant spirtually. I can't even describe how wonderful it has been to get back to the basics of the gospel as we are reminded to do by Elder L. Whitney Clayton in his April 2017 talk, "Whatsoever He Saith unto You, Do It."
I am going to continue the same goals. I think people are starting to wonder about me appearing to talk to myself as I walk during my morning breaks especially when I walk the halls on cold days, but that is ok. They can stare if they want. I know I am doing something that is pleasing the Lord. I can't wait to find out what I am going to learn this week.
So...the weekend still seems to be my weak spot when it comes to gospel study. I don't know why. All I can think of is that I am off of my regular routine and many things slip through the cracks in the process. I struggled Wednesday, too. When getting ready with the kids, I all of a sudden realized that I only had time to get my makeup on and go. I don't know where the time went that morning. I don't know why I didn't make the time to listen to a talk later in the day. My friend, procrastination, helped a lot that day, I think. I really need to get rid of that friend. She is nothing but trouble.
I am going to keep listening to conference talks in the morning and reading in the Book of Mormon at least 10 minutes a day. I am going to add and intentional, vocal prayer daily. I started doing this during my morning break while I walk Wednesday or Thursday last week. It was amazing. I forget how much I love prayer sometimes. I know I need it. I just keep thinking that the short prayers in my head are good enough. That is definitely not true. I am more aware of my prayers when I say it out loud.
My win of the week had to do with my son, Eric. On Friday morning, Eric and I were eating breakfast at the same time. He listened to the entire talk by President Uchtdorf titled "Perfect Love Casteth Out Fear." He made a few comments here and there (they were sarcastic, but he was obviously listening). It made my heart smile to know that he was actually listening to the words of the Lord. Today, at church, I looked over during the sacrament hymn, and saw this precious boy sitting with the other teachers and deacons ready to pass the sacrament singing. Again, my heart smiled. This evening, at a fireside to kick off Trek, I sat next to this precious by as he sang in a beautiful voice, "Shall the youth of Zion falter, in defending truth and right? While the enemy assaileth, Shall we shrink or shun the fight? No." Again, my heart smiled. I am so glad I get to be sitting front row as this wonderful young man grows up and becomes the person I know he can be. I can't wait to see what is next.