Argh!

What is wrong with me? Why can I not get this done?
I listened to 2 talks this week in the morning and one tonight as preparation for a talk I am giving in two weeks. I know I can do this. I just need to get back in the habit. With conference coming up again in a few month, I want to get back in that mind set. I will make a goal of listening to 4 talks this week.
I did not read at all. I keep telling myself I need to find my actually scriptures rather than reading online or on my phone. I don't know why I have that in my head. When I was reading on a regular basis before, it was on my phone. I guess I just need to stop putting so many rules on myself. The important this is to just read. I will read at least a little bit 3 days this week. That would be more than I have been doing.
One more goal that I have is to have an outline of my talk ready by the end of this week so that I can have an idea of what I will say to finish it next week. I haven't talked in church in a very long time, so I am nervous that I will say something wrong.