Boo

Well, I read the Come Follow Me lesson this week...several times actually. I still don't know what it was about though. I didn't do anything else but pray about how to do the lesson with the boys. Friday, John and I went to the temple. I prayed about my boys and put their names in the temple. I don't have any answers yet. I think this looming depression is making it hard to feel anything though. 

Tonight John and I sat in the living room. Adam has been gone all day and Christopher was on his way home. We were so depressed. So I pulled out the Come Follow Me lesson manual and started reading it to John, along with all the scriptures. We got about 1/3 of the way done when Christopher came home. He sat on the floor playing with his dog so I continued reading. I read all the scriptures, the lesson, and John and I discussed how we knew Heavenly Father was pleased with us. Christopher continued sitting there. After we were done talking, I felt prompted to invite Christopher to start reading his scriptures again. He declined. He said he wasn't interested. I then asked him if he would listen while I read a couple of verses to him each day. He again declined. I'm not sure why I felt prompted other than Christ invites us all. Continually. Many times we decline, sometimes we don't. He listened as I read most of the lesson so I'll take that. It was great. I will just continue to invite both of the boys. What else can I do?

This week I will:

• Read the Book of Mormon every day. I think that might help lift the depression a little bit. Even if I don't have a plan, I have to start reading. I can't let that little OCD part of me prevent me from reading. 
• Keep up with my prayers

Those are my goals this week.