Well...

I really hate being off routine! Everything seems to go by the way side.

I did pray about what to say to my brother but I didn't read my scriptures or study the lesson this week.

I didn't feel like I had any real impressions on what to say to him but I tried to just be there for him and listen to him. When he was in a foul mood, which he usually takes out on me, I was able to tune in to that right away and I immediately went over and just rubbed his shoulders and expressed my love for him.

I'm sure I said nothing profound to him but I think he just needed my presence and my love. I hope it was enough for now. I love him so much and I hate seeing him suffer. I need to work on listening to people more anyway. I'm going to be a therapist after all. I should be better at that skill set.

I need to get back on track though. I sat my family down this week and told them that we were going to start studying the gospel curriculum everyday. Adam rolled his eyes, and no one said anything. I asked them if they would like the missionaries to come each week to help. They said no. But we are just going to do it. I may have to get tricky because I'm sure Adam will want to leave but he does like having dinner so I will probably just do it then. If he stops showing up for dinner, I'll do a quick one when he is around. I don't have to sneak in snippets thought because he knows to expect it now. I've made it a rule and I'm prepared to stick to it and make them too. I also told them that they were expected to sit and watch at least one session of conference each day. They could choose which one and I would prepare a special meal for it. I'm feeling on fire. I finally decided that I wasn't going to be afraid of my kids anymore.

So this week I will"

• Read my scriptures every day - I'm moving my books and stuff downstairs to my desk area. I realize that I will never really study upstairs because if I'm going to write and mark things, I need to sit down somewhere and my bed is uncomfortable for that. 
• Study the curriculum and scriptures with my family every day possible this week. I'm shooting for at least 5 days. 
• Pray on my knees everyday and recommit to my goals with my Heavenly Father
• I'm going to go to the temple this week