Why am I struggling?

I am struggling so much with my spiritual goals. I am not totally sure why. I am loving listening to the New Testament and wish I had studied it last year like I was supposed to. Right now, I am finding it interesting to hear the same stories from different people (Matthew, Mark, and Luke so far). I listened to it Monday through Thursday. Unfortunately, I only wrote in my journal once this week, and I didn't make it to the temple even though Chad and Noel did. We are so far behind on the Come, Follow me lessons that we figured we need to complete two lessons this week and next week to be caught up. We are changing our approach, and I hope that it works.
This week, I will listen to the scriptures each day, study from Come, Follow Me each night, and write in my journal every day. I am also going to make the effort to head down to the Denver Temple on Saturday since the Fort Collins temple is closed for the rest of the month.