Doing better

 I'm feeling much better this week. I got several more confirmations about getting released from my callings and today the bishop called me in to give me an official release and he was completely different. He was supportive and concerned. I really feel like the Lord changed his heart. He asked me more questions about how I was doing spiritually and then challenged me to pray on my knees. I told him that it's hard for me because when I do that, it's like a signal to my brain and my thoughts get chaotic and I just end up crying and can't think straight. He told me that pouring my heart out to God may just be me crying. He knows my heart and I don't have to have the words. That was really meaningful to me. I really feel like God spoke to him this week and it's been amazing. I really feel seen my the Lord. So my goal this week is to pray on my knees every day. Even if I just cry.